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115,000 francs, the other at 160,000 francs, cash. But both
of these submitted to Livy, for her decision.

And then the end.

June 5. At a quarter past nine this evening, she that
was the life of my life, passed to the relief of heavenly
peace of death, after 22 months of unjust and unearned
suffering. I first saw her near 37 years ago, and now I
have looked upon her face for the last time. Oh, so un-
expected!

June 6. At 12:20 P.M. I looked for the last time upon
that dear face—and I was full of remorse for things done
and said in the 34 years of married life that hurt Livy's
heart.

June 7. We had kept Mrs. Orion Clemens's death from
Livy. She never learned of it. Later we kept Sir Henry
M. Stanley's death from her. She died without ever find-
ing out that a year and a half ago Jean and afterward
Clara passed through serious illnesses under the same roof
with her.

Fifty-four lamenting cablegrams have arrived—from
America, England, France, Austria, Germany, Australia.
Soon the letters will follow. Livy was beloved everywhere.

June 10. Livy's last gift to the children was a pair of
riding-horses—six or eight weeks ago. Ugo (the butler)
will sail with them for America, from Leghorn, June 22.

June 18. I got up in a chair in my room on the second
floor and lost my balance and almost fell out (the win-
dow). I don't know what saved me. The fall would have
killed me; in my bereaved circumstances the world would
have been sure it was suicide.

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