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over to the Mohammedan communion. I said that I had
been too hasty in my conclusions, and naturally felt re-
buked and humbled. With diminished confidence I went
en with the test to the finish. I placed the sugar first in
one house of worship, then another, till I had tried them
all. With this result: that whatever church I put the sugar
in, that was the one that the ants straightway joined.
This was true, beyond shadow of a doubt, that in religious
matters the ant is the opposite of man: for man cares for
but one thing, to find the Only True Church; whereas the
ant hunts for the one with the sugar in it.

I suppose that a missionary passes some of the bitterest
hours that men are called upon to suffer in this life; hours
heavy with self-reproach, humiliation, remorse; hours
wherein the one side of his nature rises in revolt against
the other side; where his heart fights against his head;
where his duty comes into collision with his humanity.
For he is but a man, like the rest, with the instincts and
feelings common to his race. He must often feel a deep
compassion for the parents whose heart he is breaking
when he beguiles their children from the religion which
those parents love and honor and leads them into paths
which they regard as perilous, and puts upon them the
shame of treachery and apostasy. It must be that some-
times the missionary is a parent himself and has suffered
what he is now inflicting. And he will remember how
careful he was to shield his children from religious influ-
ences foreign to his creed; how particular he was to see
that the teachers were of the right theological tint before
he trusted them in any school; how promptly he dismissed
a servant, sometime or other, when he found out that that
servant was a propagandist for another creed.

He will argue that the cases differ: that the servant was
robbing his child of salvation, but that he is bringing sal-
vation to this man's children. Then he will remember that

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